Sunday, May 15, 2005
And perhaps all I hold
will only be memories.
Yesterday I was talking to Sinhui and realized that over the recent years, I've subtlely withdrew myself from the crowd. May it be in fashion sense or in the area of socializing. But I know there are some things I just don't wish my close ones to follow. It's too mass appeal. Perhaps this may contribute to the factor of why I am a loner at times.
Not long ago I told my Dad that there is gonna be a Parent-teacher conference(PTC) this mid year. And he asked what was it about and I told him the normal stuffs, and also told him that my mid year results won't be good. So he said that I didn't heed his advice, and I just walk off(not rudely) with words I don't know how to put it across. Sometimes, I just don't know how to bring across my actions in words to him. Sigh.
So I was sharing to someone about how selfish I am in love at times. It is like, if you know me, you know it, and you will feel me. No negativity will cross the minds of ours. However, if you're not willing to give your all but view me ONLY by appearance, by the way I relate and doesn't want to view me a little deeper, in the core of my heart, then I'm sorry, I would rather forsake your love for me - the one you have intended to. Because I don't want to sink in and get hurt by the end of the day. But if I feel you in me; the love you have for me, definitely there is room for your love to develop in me - I welcome with wide open arms. (: IF ever one day, you've decided to break this love, remember, it is not that I have never let you in, but you have chose to break it. Then, don't blame me for not freeing space for you when you return back.
The worst thing that can ever happen to me is to know that when I leave a place, or a person's heart, someone else can easily replace that place I once stood. Because all the love I once poured out would be in vained.
maoed.]
at 12:57 PM
+++His child.
jiayi; jean. 060488// hope// sound ministry// neb1// grace's sheep// phs// 5compassion// basketball//
+++smiles.
Him// simpsonx// shuping// red.black.white// eight// violin// guitar// disney// animals// kids// adidas// bottoms// horror::thrillers// watermelon// peach// mango// tomato// tea// fish// white chocs// marshmellows// shopping// friendships
+++frowns.
noise// dirtiness// chili// pork// snake// comedies// thunders// lightnings//
+++memories.
chalet//
courageous camp//
devotees//
devotees`bbq//
faith camp//
firework`04//
foundation camp//
life in the kingdom//
neb//
phs`03//
phs'04//
seventeen//
siMpsOnx//
student conference//
the ultimate dare//
+++books.
a love worth giving// a woman's answer to anger// every young woman's battle// helping others without hurting yourself// journeys of friendship//
if you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat// in the grip of grace// love beyond reason// loving God with all your mind// recapture the world//
the friendship's of women// traveling light// wild at heart// words that hurt words that heal//
